This Is My Story

I remember me, staring at myself
See these same two eyes, see these same two feet
I remember you, you who I used to be
You still look the same, but you don't hurt like me
Look in my reflection, somewhere my affection
Disappeared, isn't here, nothing left to say
Memories they fading, but I'm the one who made them
But I keep the love close to enough to say

What if this life is all that we are given
We just can't stop living, scared of what we see
Cuz in this world, anything can hurt you
Push you then forget you
Stole my history

But I remember me, I remember me
It don't matter where I go, what I'm told, now you know
I remember me, I remember me
Even if I say goodbye, start to cry, do or die
I remember me

I tell you what my name is
And ain't nothing gonna change it
Cuz what you are is what you are
Even if your memory's scarred
I go to places, trying to find familiar faces
They don't show, but I still know
They don't have to look for me
I dream about, I dream about
The place where all the broken pieces fit together

Cuz in this world, anything can hurt you
Push you then forget you
And stole my history

But I remember me, I remember me
It don't matter where I go, what I'm told, now you know
I remember me, I remember me
Even if I say goodbye, start to cry, do or die
I remember me

Now all that's left are these hands, this breathe
I've said goodbye to so many things that tears won't cry
And I take this pain, this joy and rain
Cuz all that matters now is
In this life, anything can hurt you
Push you then forget you
It stole my history

But I remember me, I remember me
It don't matter where I go, what I'm told, now you know
I remember me, I remember me
Even if I say goodbye, start to cry, do or die
I remember me

I remember me, oh woah
I remember me, I tell you what my name
I tell you what me name is
Do or die 

~A

To Me

Life definitely has its perks!

Much love y'all!

~A

Winter Wonderland

Happy New Year my dear readers! May 2013 sparkle for you even more than last year. Wishing you all the best from NYC.

xoxo

~A

I'm Still Standing

My friend Jonathan informed me that he read my blog tonight and dug deep into some of the stories from my past. It made me realize that it's been way too long since I've made an update. All you need to know is the title of this entry. NYC hasn't conquered me yet! But more importantly, I hope y'all are well.

~A

Back To School Season

The Google EDU sales team has a web series that shares insights and recommendations for advertisers. This is my debut. LOL!

~A

Adulterous Sentiments

...sadly somehow I relate. Listen closely.

 ~A

How To Be A Heartbreaker

Rule #1: You gotta have fun, but baby when're done, you gotta be the first to run
Rule #2: Just don't get attached to, somebody you could lose
Rule #3: Wear your heart on your cheek but never on your sleeve, unless you wanna taste defeat
Rule #4: Gotta be looking pure, kiss him goodbye at the door and leave him wanting

This is how to be a heartbreaker
Boys they like the look of danger
We'll get him falling for a stranger
A player, singing la-la-love you
At least I think I do

We do, whatever it will take
Cuz gays don't want, we don't want our hearts to break...in two
So it's better to be fake, can't risk loosing in love again baby

Thank you Marina and The Diamonds for these words that can't be any truer!

~A

The Days Of Summer

This is life...

~A

Words Matter

If you were here beside me
Instead of in New York
If the curve of you was curved on me
I’d tell you that I loved you
Before I even knew you
Cause I loved the simple thought of you

If our hearts are never broken
Well there’s no joy in the mending
There’s so much this hurt can teach us both
Though there’s distance and there’s silence
Your words have never left me
They’re the prayer that I say every day.

Come on, come out, come here, come here
Come on, come out, come here, come here
Come on, come out, come here, come here
Come on, come out, come here, come here

The lone neon lights
And the heat of the ocean
And the fire that was starting to spark
I miss it all, from the love to the lightning
And the lack of it snaps, me in two

If you were here beside me
Instead of in New York
Of the arms you said you'd never leave
I'd tell you that it's simple
And it was only ever thus
There is nowhere else that I belong

Come on, come out, come here, come here
Come on, come out, come here, come here
Come on, come out, come here, come here
Come on, come out, come here, come here

The lone neon lights
And the heat of the ocean
And the fire that was starting to spark
I miss it all from the love to the lightning
And the lack of it snaps, me in two
Just give me a sign
There’s an end with a beginning
To the quiet chaos driving me back

The lone neon lights
And the warmth of the ocean
And the fire that was starting to go out.

~A

PS: Hope to do a full update soon.

These Are The Words Of Love

I am obsessed with Emeli Sandé and think she is one of the most talented artists to have come out recently. She started off as a song writer and composed quite a few hits for some of the biggest UK artists. I am so pleased that she ventured out on her own. She's kind of like the UK version of Skylar Grey (look her up too if you don't know her cuz you should). Emeli' new album "Our Version Of Events" is only available in Europe right now, but one must be resourceful when it comes to new music. "River" is probably my favorite song off of the album.

If you're looking for the big adventure 
And gold is all that's on your mind 
If all you want someone to take your picture 
Then I won't waste your time 

See maybe I'm too quiet for ya 
You probably never noticed me 
But if you're too big to follow rivers
How you ever gonna find the sea 

So follow me, I'll be your river river 
I'll do the running for ya, follow me 
I'll be your river river, I'll move the mountains for ya
Follow me, I'll be your river river 
I'm here to keep you flowing, follow me 
I'll be your river river, river river, yeah 

If all you want are answers to your questions 
And you can't seem to find no love for free
If you're looking for the right direction
Then darling look for me 

See I can make the load much lighter 
I just need you to come finding me
But if you're too proud to follow rivers 
How are you ever gonna find the sea

So follow me, I'll be your river river 
I'll do the running for ya, follow me 
I'll be your river river, I'll move the mountains for ya
Follow me, I'll be your river river 
I'm here to keep you flowing, follow me 
I'll be your river river, river river, yeah 

Where ever you are standing, I will be by your side 
Through the good through the bad, I'll never be hard to find
So where ever you are standing, I will be by your side
Through the good through the bad, I'll never be hard to find

So follow me, I'll be your river river 
I'll do the running for ya, follow me 
I'll be your river river, I'll move the mountains for ya
Follow me, I'll be your river river 
I'm here to keep you flowing, follow me 
I'll be your river river, river river, yeah 

Where ever you'll be standing, I will be by your side
Through the good through the bad, I will never be hard to find

~A

Inspiration From An Unlikely Place

I think we can all agree that I am not a Burning Man type of guy, but I found this clip to be so wonderful and encouraging. It made me smile in all sorts of ways. The characters and the score are perfectly aligned to the story. "Oh, The Place You'll Go" by Dr.Seuss will always hold a very special place in my heart because it was a goodbye gift to me from a special guy I "dated." I still remember reading it with him the night we said goodbye, and tears that came with it. I know it's a children's book, but the message is so universal. Hope this clip brightens your day as it did mine.

Happy New Year my dear readers!

~A

This Christmas

Christmas gift suggestions: to your enemy, forgiveness. To an opponent, tolerance. To a friend, your heart. To a customer, service. To all, charity. To every child, a good example. To yourself, respect.

Merry Christmas ♥

~A